The Pain Inside

It rains ...

I rain
I rain deep down my soul
I rain tears

Shedding burning
tears
running down my cheeks,
splitting my sides.

All-consuming pain,
suffocating my brain.

That what is left inside my mind,
wears away until I am blind.

I rain like the sky is grey,
with not even one sunray.

Endless it rains deep down
my soul
feeling utterly lonesome.

Even though surrounded by
so many caring people,
I feel unhappier by the minute,

leaving me clueless as to why
this uninvited guest,
settles itself comfortable
in my inner life.

Somewhere along the path,
I lost the how to send it packing,
right out of my heart,
harmless to beautiful dreams.

Instead it forcefully gnaws,
with strong clawing paws.
When you think it finally leaves,
a soft whispering web it weaves.

Choices are not being given.
Decisions were already taken.

At the day of birth
reaching out to touch
tomorrows death
that is already full-grown inside.